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Letter from Shishou. [29 Sep 2006|11:27pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Kotetsu-san and Izumo-san arrived with Tsunade-shishou's letters. I was surprised there was one meant just for me.


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Although... what Tsunade-shishou said... It's probably a good time for me to hear this from somebody.


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It's time to get busy. Not just with working at the hospital either, but with using Suna's resources to learn how I can be a BETTER medic. There's research to do and things to learn! Methods to explore and master! Medicines to discover and create!

Stand back, Suna! From now on, most of you will only be able to see my back. You haven't even begun to see what Haruno Sakura can do for you yet!! SHANNYARO!!

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[19 Sep 2006|07:04pm]
[ mood | busy ]

I can hardly believe how much damage Orochimaru managed to do to Suna... When I think about the times he's made war on Konoha and how we've come out compared to this... It makes you want to do something, but there so much to do, you hardly know where to start. I'm not sure how the Kazekage will manage it, but... as long as we're here, we'll do what we can!


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So far I haven't had much trouble earning respect of the hospital staff here. They seem willing to accept Konoha's help, so I've been keeping busy working with them to start treating the many other patients and survivors that are here in the aftermath of things.

Tamari-san, Kankuro-san, there's a medical jutsu I've been mastering that I think can help with any of the restlessness or headaches you've been experiencing due to the psychological stress I've discussed with both of you. Please cooperate when I find you.


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And no one has to worry. I AM getting rest. One of the first rules to taking care of other people is to take care of yourself, after all~!

But please don't feel bad if you need to disturb me. I trust all of you to be able to judge wisely on how important it is.

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Mission in Progress. [17 Sep 2006|10:11pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

In our approach to Sand, at first nothing happened. In fact, it almost looked like we were going to be able to get in without detection. But I suppose in a way we all knew better than that since we all reacted so quickly when we were suddenly ambushed.

At first I tried staying back like Kakashi-sensei told me, but that soon just got me separated from the others. In fact, it seems that the plan was to split up our party. Have to admit it worked though, because soon I was dodging the enemy's attacks and couldn't find anyone. I fought off who I could, then tried to lose them and look for the others. Teamwork is best, as sensei would say.

By the time I found Kazekage-sama's siblings, they were already being helped by Otoro-san, Genma-san, Iwashi-san, and the Kazekage himself. I pretty much jumped in as a medic then and began treating people however I could, and luckily our enemies seemed to retreat so we weren't really bothered much. Naruto and Kakashi-sensei found us after that.

So there I was, trying to take care of everyone's wounds--including Temari's, even though lately I haven't known what to think of her... But a doctor isn't to allow personal feelings to get in the way of their duty; a patient is a patient and a person, period. ...It became a little harder to focus however when the next thing I know...

Otaro-san turns out to be Sasuke.

And Kakashi-sensei knew. And TEMARI knew. ......And I didn't.

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...Kakashi-sensei, thank you for letting me get supplies from the hospital. Iwashi-san, thank you for your assistance.

Kankuro, Temari, please, both of you get some rest. Your minds need it.

If anyone else needs any medical attention, please let me know. Hey Naruto, are you alright? I have some ointment I can put on those cuts of yours.

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Between Leaf and a Dry Place... [04 Aug 2006|08:43pm]
[ mood | determined ]

It should only be one and a half more days until our team reaches Sand. Kakashi-sensei has been keeping us moving at a quick pace, but making sure we'll still have the energy needed for when we get there. While we'd prefer for this to be as quiet and sudden attack/rescue as possible, we've got to keep prepared.

Naruto regained his memory in time to rejoin our team for this mission! At least, I hope it's all back. Even after a seemingly full recovery from amnesia, a patient can still suffer from selective memory losses. But... I'll put my faith in Naruto!

The fourth member of our squad is someone we've never met before. Sashimi Otaro-san, another chuunin. Hokage-sama wouldn't let Sasuke go, not with the strong possibility of Orochimaru himself being in Sand. I personally agree with her decision, but I don't know how to say that to Saskue-kun without him getting mad... He's kept mostly to himself this whole trip and hardly said a word, which makes developing our teamwork hard. Mou. It reminds me a little of Sasuke-kun's attitude when we were first starting out as a team. Normally, I don't think I'd have a problem with this but we're so short on time. It's better if we try to get ourselves in sync with one another so our team has a better chance of success. I thought Tsunade-shishou said he was friendlier than this and would be easy to get along with....

Regardless, the closer we get to Sand, the more anxious and nervous I feel. I still haven't forgotten that time I was captured by them, but... We pushed them out of Konoha. Surely we can be of help now and do the same here!

Sensei! We're following your lead!

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Things as they are... [19 Jul 2006|06:32pm]
Just when things are clearing up at the hospital and I think I can finally get a BREAK---Gaara arrives in Konoha with his former sensei and (the biggest surprise) with Kurenai-sensei. Gaara and Baki-san were looking fine, but Kurenai-sensei was suffering from blood loss, exaustion, and a near-fatal stomach wound. It was only near-fatal because it had begun to infect, but by a miracle we were able to treat it just in time. I'm not sure how long she's had it. Looks like a while. But someone gave her a medicine that helped hold off infection, so doubtless she's alive now because of that. Why was she at Sand though??

Team Eight, your sensei, Yuuhi Kurenai, is currently in Intensive Care at the hospital. She'll be out for a while as she recovers from her injury. Sorry, but no visitors will be permited to see her for a while. Hokage-sama's orders, not mine.

Naruto's doing better, I think. He's acting a lot like his old self, even if he doesn't remember yet. Kakashi-sensei's arm is healed, and Sasuke-kun is..... Sasuke-kun is...... well... Ever since we received news of Orochimaru being in Suna, Sasuke-kun has been on edge. Maybe it's just word about Orochimaru that has him upset. ......Or maybe he's worried about someone there something else... He's not talking to me much. And honestly, I haven't tried very hard...

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Free Time. [26 May 2006|05:34pm]
[ mood | feeling MUCH better ]

The funeral services were... well, they were nice as far as funeral services can go. It didn't rain like it did at Sandaime's funeral, but the weather was peaceful. I took a long walk around the village by myself after the proceedings, using the time to remember what these people died for, and what we're still determined to protect. I think I've learned for myself that even though the sacrifices made were sad... they were also worth it.

And I believe those who died knew this too.

Sasuke-kun is back and he seems to be fine. But I can help still wondering what happened... ......I'm glad. Maybe he can help with Naruto's condition.

Also, Tsunade-shishou ordered me to take a day off. I didn't really look that bad, did I?! ...Well, I slept through most of it. THIRTEEN HOURS OF SLEEP?! EVEN IF I DID NEED TO CATCH UP THAT'S A LONG TIME TO BE OUT!! ...My chakra reserves must've been REALLY dry...... I feel a lot better now~ Took a shower and it felt SO good. Still a bit of time left for me to spend as I please.

I think I'll go visit Naruto. Sasuke-kun, Kakashi-sensei, are you free?

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Another announcement. [24 May 2006|07:38pm]
[ mood | stressed ]

Word is already going around, but there will be mass funeral services held tomorrow morning at 10 am. The usual ceremonial robes to be worn, and the procession will take usual procedures. Messenger birds have been sent out with seating orders and arrangements.]

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Naruto. I need you to be here now. I need you to smile that stupid grin of yours and tell me something that will make it better, or give me some of that strength you have. Idiot. ...please remember...

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Notices. [11 May 2006|10:58pm]
[ mood | DEAD ]

Well if there's one thing I've learned from the past few days of running nearly non-stop at patching up various members of Konoha's forces and civilian ranks, it's what kind of patients they make. So far I've come up with four categories to place a patient under that I call my "4Cs": Criers, Cringers, Collected, or Comatose. Either they make a HUGE fuss, a little fuss, no fuss, or they faint on the spot.

I think I have most of Konoha categorized now. And if I haven't seen you yet, that only means it's simply a matter of time before you get your own "C".

In the meantime, here are a few of notices to people:

Team Gai, Lee-san may have overdone it a bit again as it looks like he used his Primary Lotus technique a few times... He'll need to stay in the hospital for a while. Please visit him as I know staying in bed all day makes him a little... anxious. Also, the muscles in Tenten's left shoulder and wrist were pulled and while she won't be hospital-bound, please make sure she doesn't strain herself.

Team 10, Ino needs lots of rest despite anything she may try to protest. She exhausted her chakra while fighting and it will take her the better part of a week to recover, so make sure she doesn't try and move too soon!! (I'm emphasizing this because I know how you men seem to cave so easily under her insistence--Chouji, Shikamaru, I'm looking at YOU. Asuma-sensei, I know you'll do better than those two would so I'm mainly counting on you.)


Konohamaru Corps, your sensei, Ebisu-san, is going to be bed-ridden for quite a while. I think he'd like some visitors though, or at least some people who come in to keep him regularly posted of the news around town. He needs a little special attention too--broke his left arm and left leg, plus a bad gash on his right foot--so I think he'd appreciate it from some people he trusts. I'll help you out if you need it.

Shikamaru, I'm calling in that favor you owe me. You're going to be on the volunteer list for the hospital for the next two weeks. Show up tomorrow in the first floor lobby at 6 AM sharp or DIE. <3

Hokage-sama, I NEED A VACATION could I take off early today?

Is Team 8 the only one that didn't have anyone hospital bound? They were injured and all sure, but nothing to keep any of them here for more than one night. (Akamaru may need rest, but that's for a vet and not really a doctor...) Where is Kurenai-sensei anyhow?

Naruto still doesn't seem to remember much of anything other than his name right now. ...I suppose that's good... right? It's something at least, but I hope he remembers again.

I wonder if Sasuke-kun will be back from his mission soon.

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....At last....? [12 Apr 2006|11:41pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

The enemy... I think... I think it's finally ending. Sound-nin are slowly falling back from all the posts I've passed. They're retreating.

....so does this mean...... we've won...? (Is it possible to even use that term?)

*collects herself, realizing the hardest most exhausting task may be ahead of her yet*

All and any injured personnel, please try to make your way to the nearest hospital or medical encampment marked by white flags/banners. Once dismissed, please leave the are so that other injured shinobi may receive treatment. Thank you.

Goodbye fighting, hello late-night hospital shifts. Here goes nothing...

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Field Aid [28 Mar 2006|08:39pm]
AURG!! That Ino-pig!!! She ran off on me before I could get her to a medical center! Shikamaru, Chouji, Asuma-sensei! If you run into her, give her a piece of my mind for me!!!


Medical centers are set up closer to Hokage's Tower, but the underground evacuation tunnels are being put in effect for running patients to facilities. A few medic-nin such as myself will be making our way around to give field aid!


Hang in there everyone! Sound didn't lick us the last time, and they won't win now either!!
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As of late... [11 Feb 2006|07:19pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

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Mou. Where is everyone lately? I know we've all been busy with preparations but I've hardly seen anyone. Sasuke-kun's still on his mission, but I haven't heard from Naruto either lately. (Which you know is odd since he's Konoha's record-keeper for Most Decibls per Syllable.) Kakashi-sensei has probably been busy with many of the other jounin. I haven't had time to train with Lee-san either. ...Heck, I even miss Ino-pig.

There's just too much tension in the air. I'm willing for almost any distraction...

Hey Naruto! If you can hear me, I'll treat you to ramen if you come out!!!

Wow, I am desperate.

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Dummy. [11 Jan 2006|05:11pm]
[ mood | shocked ]

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Oh my gosh. o_o I just broke one of the medical dummies in Hokage-sama's study! I mean, I was just kinda playing around with this new technique I think I found and using it as a regular practice dummy but I accidentally broke it! Smashed a hole in it clean through. Omg could this technique actually work?! I hide it in the janitor's closet but I need to find a replacement one before shishou realizes it's gone! Hopefully this war stuff will preoccupy her long enough...

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Can I borrow anyone's practice dummy for a while?

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The Next Step. [01 Jan 2006|11:43pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Ow. Ow, ow, ow, ow, ow. I am incredibly sore today. Not only have I been running extra errands for Tsunade-shishou lately, but today she surprised me with a new step in my training today. We sparred.

I mean, in a way I've sparred with her before, but most of the time, she just has me come at her and ducks and dodges my attacks, tutoring me along the way. But today, for the first time she actually fought back. Not with her full-strength, or else I'm sure I'd be dead, but with enough focus that I felt like I had been fighting for my life out there for a little while. If not for the extra training I've been doing with Lee-san, I think I would've ended up a lot more bruised than I am now.

And that's the other thing. I can't allow anyone else to heal me; I have to do it myself. Tsunade-shishou tells me that in the battle field, I won't have a convenient hospital full of doctors to treat me. I have to learn to do it myself. This normally wouldn't be a problem at all, but shishou really ran me ragged today and I'm just wiped out! I took care of the worst of it, but my chakra is completely depleted. I'll have to sleep with what's left tonight and hope I have enough strength to heal the rest in the morning.

I think this is also a lesson on how I must improve my endurance and physical stamina. On a mission, I will still be using myself as a shinobi while also needing to keep myself available as a medic. This means I have to think twice as carefully on how I expel my chakra and use up my stamina.

There's suddenly such a smaller room for error now. As a doctor that means one thing, but as a medic-nin, it suddenly means a whole lot more. It makes me nervous, but... More than anything I'm feeling excited.

I'm getting stronger. In my own way... I'm really getting stronger.


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Right now, I need some sleep. Wake me up in a week from now... -.-

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Training, as usual. [06 Dec 2005|05:37pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

It's been some time now since the news of Ino actually being alive has spread, and while I've managed to breath normally again through the relief, sometimes my eyes wander over to the red ribbon I now have sitting on my nightstand at home. It makes me wonder if I should give it back--even if just for the sake of knowing there's someone to hold onto it. Well... I'm still just so glad.

Lee-san has been helping me with my regular taijutsu training. Sometimes my time is so taken up with the studies Tsunade-shishou gives me that I'm afraid I'm slacking in shinobi skills. I'm training to be a medical ninja after all. Some of my studies do include exercises that increase my physical abilities, but over all I'm wondering how well I can blend them with shinobi talents on the field. By practicing both at once, I think I may get a better feel for it.

Lee-san is wonderful. I'll have to make him the Haruno specialty ohagi to show my gratitude. That, and of course use his mentoring to improve myself.

Sasuke-kun unexpectedly left on a mission. At least, I found it unexpected. I wanted to personally thank him for the consideration he showed me during Ino's "death" but he wasn't at home or anywhere in the village. Later from Tsunade-shishou herself I heard he'd been given an assignment. .....I guess it's no surprise he didn't tell me. He didn't tell anyone else really either, so... It's just how he is. ...While nice, it's rather impudent of me to think he'd take time from his preparations to say goodbye to me... I'm still such a child in that way, it's pitiful.

I think I'll go visit Tenten and Ino later in their apartment. After that, maybe I can find Naruto for a bowl of ramen before my shift at the hospital. Company just sounds nice right now.

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Taking courage. [23 Nov 2005|06:39pm]
[ mood | determined ]

Tenten said she had something to give me of Ino's, so I stopped by her apartment to pick it up. I waited until I got home before opening it.

It was the old, red ribbon.

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Thank you, Tenten. If... there's anything I can do for you in return, please let me know. I think I'd like to get to know you better. I know I would.

The funeral is soon. I wonder if I'll cry again. I suppose it doesn't matter that much. I won't cry forever, and soon my eyes will be clear enough again to look at the future and meet it head on.

Sound has indicated towards going to war with us again. Whatever skills I've learned so far will now be needed more than ever, and whatever talents I can still yet learn might very well turn something to our advantage. I want to be read--no, I will be ready. If anyone makes sure Ino didn't die in vain, it will be me.

It's probably the least I can do for her... as a friend.

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Why isn't sensei be this sage all the time? [20 Nov 2005|11:08pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

Kakashi-sensei is amazing. Really amazing. Sometimes I forget that because he always acts so irresponsible and doing things to tease us, but... He's strong. Not just in his talents as a ninja, but as a person too.

I was looking for Shikamaru when I found Kakashi-sensei instead. I remembered some of the things Kakashi-sensei had told our team the day we passed his test--about how he had the names of many of his good friends carved onto the memorial stone. Sensei has suffered and lost a lot in his life, but he still smiles and carries on so casually... I suddenly envied him for it and wanted to know his secret, so... I asked.

I won't repeat everything he told me. A lot of it I think is meant to stay between us, or until he shares that part of himself with more people. But I was feeling better afterwards. More hopeful, more confident... Stronger. It's still a long, hard journey to recovery--and some things never quite heal reguardless--but knowing that someone has made it before makes me feel like I can do the same.


"The road of life", huh?

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Is there a balance...? [18 Nov 2005|09:19pm]
[ mood | recovering ]

I woke up this morning feeling ashamed of my behavior. (Somehow I managed to stumble home before I collapsed.) I was such a wreck the other day, and I realize now that I may have worried several people. Sorry to everyone who had to deal with a weepy me.

Before training with Tsunade-sama, I'd known the codes of shinobi conduct, but if I ever broke one of the emotional ones, I always felt I could forgive myself since a part of me could admit I wasn't as strong as the others. Sasuke-kun, Kakashi-sensei, and even Naruto were always there to be the strong guys who made everything turn out alright in the end. But I've been changing the way I think about that. That's not okay with me anymore. I want to be that strong too, and ever since my tutalage with the Hokage, for the first time I've really, truly begun to think of myself as a ninja.

...and ninja are not supposed to cry...

But then again... friends are. And I begin to wonder if I can find the balance between the two.

I was worried about how everyone would react or treat me when I went out today--like they'd act as though I were something that would break apart if they mentioned Ino's name. But... Everyone I met also seemed just as sad or upset, and their condolences were just as much for their own benefit as it was for mine. I guess, even though I may have reacted badly at first, everyone else was feeling similar somewhere inside.

It's amazing, how much one person seems to have effected other lives. It makes me feel special to have once been reguarded her best friend. ...It also makes me feel terrible for ever having taken that for granted... I wonder, if perhaps, one day I might be able to be so remembered...

I visited Inoshi-san today, heading straight for him first thing in the morning. He's... still looking much like how I felt yesterday. I stayed for lunch but had to leave shortly after that to go see Tsunade-sama. Inoshi-san has always been... like a father to me. I don't know much about mine, but in the days when Ino and I were inseperatable, he filled that role in my life. I've always been grateful towards him, and seeing him like this makes me hurt in another way completely. Maybe.... if he'll allow me.... I could become something of a daughter to him..... But it's probably much too soon to ask. We all still need time.

After my meeting with Tsunade-sama is done, I want to try and find Shikamaru. I just need to talk to someone who may feel what this loss is like on a level similar to.... well... I hope I find him. (Can't be too hard, right? Just find some good clouds and get under them.)

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Tell me it's a lie. [17 Nov 2005|06:27pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

It can't be true. It can't.

I keep telling myself this, but... I heard it.

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I think I startled a lot of people by asking them if they knew where Ino was. Inoshi-san, Shikamaru, Chouji, even Kiba. I didn't tell them why I was looking for her; I turned and kept running as soon as they told me they didn't know. I wonder if I was still crying each time I asked. I can't remember.

I... I don't know who to ask anymore. I don't think anyone would know. Hokage-sama would know. I should go back and ask her. Demand her to tell me what's going on, but..... I...

I just feel... alone. Regretful. Was Sasuke-kun really worth this...? And hell, I'm still in shock. I should go lie down and let my body sleep it off, but... I can't seem to stop walking. And I don't know where I'm going.

I'm sure I'll stop soon and rest. ...probably...

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Home?! Since when?! [26 Sep 2005|06:22pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I don't really know how to begin.

I woke up in my bed. And that freaked me out.

Light. I saw sunlight. That also scared me too.

My mother FLIPPED OUT, more than she usually does when I don't do the dishes. But interestingly enough, she said no chores for an entire month. She asked if I needed to go to the psych ward incase I needed to talk to someone about.. you know. I declined though. It's just that I don't think it would've been a good idea. I don't even want to recall any of the past couple of days in that darkness. I really thought I was going to die there.. Besides, I'm Haruno Sakura~ I'll be fine. I always find a way to be.

I took a walk around town and it was then that I realized that I had COMPLETELY forgotten about the festival.

Luckily, I already had most of my poetry and calligraphy samples done before the mission. I just needed a fitting for my yukata. Granted, I really didn't feel like going out of the house even though I was dying inside to see everybody ALIVE. My mother though, pushy as she always is, eventually got me out of the house for some fresh air and good ol' shopping. (which can get any girl excited) A lot of people were surprised, almost unpleasantly surprised, at how much weight I lost. I got some comments about looking "gaunt and bare." Thank youuuu, Oro-chi-ma-ru.

But um, the festival was still great. The decorations were really nice. (I'm kind of wondering how Ino did it.. Did she do it all by herself or did she bribe some people again? -_-;) I wish I could've helped out more.. Overall, I was a lot more reserved than I should have been. I know I should've gone out and tried to enjoy it more but I felt like I needed a little bit more time to myself for a change..

And then Sasuke-kun happened. He asked-- no, he SAID-- that he was going to be my escort. It was then that I thoroughly choked on my candied apple until I was blue in the face. And he touched me.. HE TOUCHED ME!! While I was choking, yes, but STILL! HE CARED! HE CARED I WAS CHOKING!! ... I know it's kind of sad but come on. >>; I wasn't sure if this was some sort of sick joke played by Naruto (again) and I sort of.. well, let's just say I was sort of rude aferwards. It didn't take long for me to realize that it was the real Sasuke-kun and I felt my own self return. But.. but.. He.. he offered to be my ESCORT?! And he was.. he was.. HE WAS WALKING AROUND WITH ME THE WHOLE TIME! Not because he was ordered to, but because he wanted to. He cares. He really cares!! Knowing Sasuke-kun, if I immediately rejoice, he'll run from me like I'm carrying anthrax. Screaming = saved for in the pillow later.

I can say that I felt considerably cheerful after that and by the end of it all, I was latching onto his arm like usual. But I think he let me once or twice.

Well, it's good to be back. It really is.

I'm just wondering though-- Who took me back here?

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[03 Aug 2005|12:12am]
[ mood | scared ]

This is just disgusting. It has been past the point where I can go without bathing. I've been locked up in this cell for what.. Five, six days now? I can hardly see a thing, but my eyes are starting to adjust to the dim light the torches are giving off. Judging from the wetness in the air, we're underground. Way underground.

What does Orochimaru want with me? Does he want to get to Sasuke-kun? You can have me, but I am in no way letting you get your snaky hands on Sasuke-kun. YOU CANNOT SOIL HIS PURE BODY! I don't know what I'm supposed to say..

I tried to get my hands on the bars but every time I touch them, I basically get electrocuted my chakra gets depleted. So.. I'm.. basically stuck. And alone. Really alone.

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I guess I haven't realized until now but I've been crying for the past couple of minutes. I swore to myself I never would..

Honestly though, when it comes down to it, I really would rather die than rat out on any of my comrades. Especially if it's Sasuke-kun. Maybe that's the least I can do for him.. Protect him with what he gives me so often; silence.

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